I'll wait for you, but I won't wait forever

jealousemostud @ 2006-04-29T10:08:00

2006-04-29T14:09:53Z

New Game:

All flirt.
No feel.

Let's see how that goes over.

jealousemostud @ 2006-04-20T17:13:00

2006-04-20T21:15:28Z

well...

it's not going as well as planned

[i guess i could put it that way]

other than that, LaFawnda is dying.
She's hit the end.

What a shame.

So much for a hoods up day

that didn't go as well as planned, either...

jealousemostud @ 2006-04-17T16:52:00

2006-04-17T20:53:38Z

it's one of those days, or at least i thought.

i tried it out, but,

the.feeling's.gone.

it's such a shame.

i hope you stay...

jealousemostud @ 2006-04-16T13:07:00

2006-04-16T17:07:42Z

BUONA PASQUA!!

♥

the start of something new

2006-03-19T18:13:00Z

I've changed my mind over the past few months, especially during the beginning of musical, I'd say.

My life has become clearer to me. My friends, included. Changes are inevitable and some are for the better. I've made new friends, as one would expect over the course of 3 months or so. I've started working again after not working for 3 weeks. Not gonna lie, I kind of missed it. Adrienne and I went out to Steak and Shake last night at like 11. Good times. She was telling me this story of a creepy guy who worked there when she went with some of her friends one night. He like..."touched" them and would get into pictures when they'd take pictures with their phones. It just so happened that that very kid waited on US last night. He was so creepy. She ordered a milkshake, but asked it to come with no cherry or whipped cream, and he replied "Do you still want the chopped onions on top?"...apparently he meant the chopped nuts that come on top. It was hilarious.

Let's see...since my last update, and I know it was fairly recent, I bought a prom dress, even though this one is my "back-up" because the one I really want can't be found...yet. Musical has been going well. I'm slightly under the weather, however, it's not necessarily noticeable. I don't have much of a singing voice so that threw everything (Maxwell Show) off for me. I have not yet receieved my District Choir or Honor's Jazz Band Festival CDs yet, which is a bummer, too. (My brother is asleep under this computer desk right now. Too cute.)

What else... Cory and I have been hanging out a lot, which is nice. I went over to his house to visit with Jim after the Beach Bash, while he was home for Spring Break. I didn't get to see Kory, though, which sucked, but I'm hoping to do some college visits sometime soon. Aunt Sarah is pregnant with a boy AND a girl, for those who new she was expecting twins. At least she'll have ONE more girl for Brianna.

Two weekends ago, Mom went to Hidden Valley with everyone, so Katie and I were home alone. We had a jazz band show that Saturday, and we had two this past week (Blind School and East Hempfield Elem.). Supposedly, those were our last "public" shows, but have the Senior Awards Assembly and the Spring Concert left. (He's still asleep.) I've gotten into some awesome new bands, which is ALWAYS super exciting.

I don't know what else there is to update you all on...I want to be a model? Yeah. I'm obsessed with America's Next Top Model and 8th and Ocean (go Britt!!). That's about par for this entry. I'm sure y'all are enjoying reading about my life...or not. But, I work tonight...actually in like an hour and a half, so I'm gonna get going.

xoxoxo

Tall and skinny does not a model make.

jealousemostud @ 2006-02-26T21:56:00

2006-02-27T02:57:55Z

well...it's been a while since I've updated.

I got to hang out with Marcus last night, and the kids from his band, because they were in Latrobe for a show. It was really nice to see him after so long.

Musical = life, as it usually does, but it's going well.

Jazz band shows are becoming more frequent, but I love performing, so, no biggie there.

I'm applying at Starbucks...woot.

That's it.
My hair's less red, but anyone who reads this, knows that anyway.

I'm out, kids
♥ me

remember all the things you tried to forget

2006-01-13T03:24:42Z

well

i got the part of Nettie in the musical
i take my drivers test on the 31st
i take the SATs on the 28th
midterms suck
so does my life

how about that for an update?

jealousemostud @ 2006-01-01T01:01:00

2006-01-01T06:01:58Z

Happy New Year

let's make it a good one.

♥♥♥

In the year 2006 I resolve to:

Get more bang for my buck.

Get your resolution here

jealousemostud @ 2005-12-22T16:13:00

2005-12-22T21:16:19Z

Today was one of the most stressful days ever.

Cast List:

Carrie....Molly
Julie.....Juliana
Billy.....Rob
Enoch.....Dean
Nettie....Me
Jigger....C.Ruffner

1. Ever been given a ring?
yes…by my Grandparents and mother

2. Single/Taken?
single

3. What are you listening to?
The Willing Well III: Apollo II: The Telling Truth – Coheed & Cambria

4. How many times have you dropped your cell today?
none…today

5. Last sport you played?
basketball

6. Things you spend a lot of money on?
food, lip gloss, purses

7. Three things you ate last?
parts of a candy cane, cereal, mint

8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
teeth/smile, eyes, hair

9. One favorite song
Me vs. Maradona vs. Elvis

10. Where do you live?
GBG (xcore)

11. High school you attend(ed).
Hempfield Area

12. Cell phone service provider.
Verizon

13. Favorite mall store.
Hollister/ AE

14. Longest Job held.
Rax/Subway

15. Do you own a pair of dice?
no

16. Do you prank call people?
no

17. Last wedding attended?
Erin/Darren in November (?)

18. First friend you'd call if you won the lottery?
Chrissie, Peter, Dan, or Lib

19. Last time you attended church.
Sunday

20. Favorite fast food restaurant.
Subway

21. Biggest lie you have heard?
I can’t say, because then you’ll know who said it

22. Immediate Vacation Spot.
Immediate? Um…I loved Italy

23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends?
Dennys, ENP, Cici’s, Steak and Shake

24. Can you cook?
enough

25. What car do you drive?
both of them

26. Best kisser?
N.J.

27. Last time you cried?
I don’t remember

28. Most hated food?
I’m really not a big fan of hot dogs

29. Thing you like most about yourself.
personality/eyes

30. Thing you hate most about yourself.
lack of self confidence

31. Person you want to do?
Mike Galliotto?

32. Longest shift you have worked at a job?
6 hours

33. Favorite Movie?
A Walk to Remember, Anchorman, Bread and Tulips, Le Divorce,
Finding Nemo, and La Boheme (Silent/B &W versiou)

34. Can you sing?
yes

35. Last concert attended?
Warped Tour

36. Last kiss?
don’t remember

37. Last movie rented.?
oh, geeze…I want to say Team America Police force, or whatever the hell
that movie was…it was with Nick

38. Favorite Alcoholic drink?
Kahlua and milk, Margaritas, and mudslides

39. Thing you never leave home without.
lip gloss, my purse, celly-elly, i-pod

40. What are you gonna do now that your done?
go to work.

oh, it's what you do to me...

2005-12-20T02:40:22Z

DANCE PICS!

(You can basically tell who is who...if you need clarification, ask.)

jealousemostud @ 2005-12-16T18:33:00

2005-12-16T23:40:11Z

some Christmas dance pics. more to come:

I went with Dan.
Katie went with Nathan.
Allie G.P went with Alex.

jealousemostud @ 2005-12-11T22:43:00

2005-12-12T03:44:02Z

Stole this from Dominique: Take the first sentence (or second or third) from the first entry of each month. (Jan-March are from the DJ)

January:
(January 1)
this has been a great break.
a lot of things have been going on.
a lot of things have changed.

February:
(February 3)
i have come to the conclusion that i'm very insecure, self-concious, i don't show much emotion (i bottle 'em up...), and i worry too much.

March:
(March 3)
i over-reacted. i'm so paranoid, because i've found such a good thing in you that i'm afraid to let you go. sorry...::covers mouth quickly:: anyway...i'm a drama queen. but i hope i made some what of a point? maybe, maybe not. we'll see how tomorrow goes...

April:
(April 6)
This one is for Josie :

"Your House"

When you're on, I swear you're on.
You rip my heart right out.

May:
(May 2)
hey kids. ok, prom... (pics will be later, though)

June:
(June 13)
hey kids! this has been interesting...my computer isn't working, so i'm at my nonni's. anyway. nothing much has happened. well, little things, but if you were there, you know what's up.

July:
(July 6)
hello hello! i have a new mother-effin computer!! woot. so i'll be on a lot more often

August:
(August 2)

Warped Tour

Got to Nicky's around 9:45.
DeMatteo showed up.
Then Kelly, shortly after 10:30.

September:
(September 1)
hey kids.

sorry for the non-updating-ness..

anyway.

October:
(October 1)
don’t make fun of the gimp god
"with no strings attached?!"
"i'm so obnoxious" "STOP SAYING 'OBNOXIOUS'!"
(that’s Alex kissing my knee…)
“your lunch date has been changed to 4”

November:
(November 13)
it's times like these that make me sick.

December:
(December 11)
i've realized that so much has changed since last year. maybe too much.

when it's cold outside...

2005-11-28T03:37:48Z

i don't want to fall apart.
i just want a chance.
not my heart this time?
...but that makes me seem selfish.
nothing's ever certain and that makes me sick.
how do i know what he feels?
...but is he like that with all of us?

Nick's done with.
completely.
nothing will ever happen with him again.
and i'm for sure (and for serious) about that one.
although you might think i'm being crazy, i'm making that definite.

sometimes i amaze myself.
i'm such a bitch.
...but only on the outside.
and i hate it!
if i'm mean to you, which i really hope i'm not, or if i come off as obnoxious. slap me. i'm serious. don't be afraid to tell me straight if i'm being stupid. hit me. or yell at me. pick my poison.

i don't want to be in love.
...at least not yet
but i want someone.
sometimes.
I just want someone who is genuinely kind to me. not using me for their own image. or being selfish.
just someone who will treat me nicely. put up with my stupidity. Not care if I look perfect all the time...even though, that's about 99.999% of the time. someone who will take silly pictures with me. someone who will hold my face in his hands when he kisses me. someone that's doesn't take it fast. I'm old fashioned. I want a boy who will open the door for me. He can pay for me sometimes. Not make a big deal about me going out with the girls and have some time so he can go out with his friends. Someone who's not overly flirty with everyone. Someone who will call me at night to say "Good Night". I just want someone to be there for me. For stupid stuff. Someone who will be a really good friend and when we break up, he'll still be there for me and not be afraid to tell me things. Anything. Because I blurt. So be willing to listen. Someone who will comfort me and be a shoulder for me to cry on (because we all know how often i cry).

I WANT A BOY WHO WILL THROW ROCKS AT MY WINDOW & STAND OUTSIDE IN MY BACK YARD WITH A RADIO IN HIS HANDS PLAYING A BEAUTIFUL LOVE SONG & SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET FOR US TO LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER AND AFTER! ♥

ok...maybe it's just John getting to me. But sometimes I have those feelings. I'm the one who's all "oh em gee. you don't need anyone" (cuz you don't.) but sometimes you just want someone. today is one of those days...

We Beseech Thee...♥ Gracie
"things is hard and things are a' changin'"

take a long swim with me...

2005-11-20T02:46:42Z

Me and Ryan

Me and Jon

Me and Laura

as long as you're mine...

2005-11-19T23:51:52Z

here's another picture entry...

COUNTY CHORUS: GREENSBURG SALEM H.S. NOV 17-18
(most of these pictures are of the second day/banquet/pre-concert)

Me and Elly

Me and Jon Mracko

Me and Dan

Me and Ky

The PT gang (from R to L- Courtney, Mark, Me, Ryan, and Jon)

Me and Sam

Brent, Bronsen, Me, and Nathan(iel)

Hempfield kids

the gang

if looks could kill...

2005-11-15T01:02:56Z

ok. i admit it. i am the world's biggest brat. kill me.

i am pissed.

i am just so sick and tired of me.

sick and tired and i would love to just end it all now.

start somewhere else.

fuck.me.

don't call me. it's broken. it will be broken. don't call. because you can't.

two step

2005-11-13T18:06:05Z

The past few weeks of my life:

rather eventful, i'd say...

Next on the agenda:
County Chorus (GSHS 11/17-11/18)
District Choir auditions (BPHS 11/21)
Thanksgiving
(Hopefully) S.Bay's for Black Friday

you seemed like such a big part of my life and my heart

just this once

2005-11-02T04:30:21Z

i never thought i'd be the one breaking down

2005-10-30T02:34:24Z

the end of the week was fabulous

Thursday was THE biggest blow off day. I was basically down at HB's the whole time "practicing Honor's music". Friday we went to S.Fayette...i love Sam...so fun (pics are to come)
the director was such a nice guy, but no one was really prepared
the girl that sat next to me moved her mouth too much, and had a Frosty vibrato. I wasn't by Rach :(

but anyway. i went to Rocky Horror (midnight show-pics to come) with the gang...Peter, Alex, Larissa, and Allie G.P. that was a blast. didn't get home til 2 AM or so woke up at 7:30. Got on the bus for Honor's at 8. and we went to South Fayette.

They had static in the bathrooms.

it was a fun time. there isn't much else...i guess you had to be there for other little things, like Sam and the tampon, massage trains, S.M wearing pants., that kind of thing...I can't wait for Districts. hopefully i'll get in.
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I'm in Pittsburgh right now...this weekend (especially last night) have gotten me to thinking about things, and a couple of the songs from tonight's performance/choir festival get me, too...

This is from" The Way You Look Tonight (this hit me yesterday, and it REALLY hit me, because it's so true about this one particular incident...well...memory)

"Some day when I'm awfully low. When the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking about you and the way you look tonight. Oh, but you're lovely. This is nothing for me but to love you. Lovely, never, never change. Keep that breathless charm..."

Amor De Mi Alma (You Are the Love of My Soul) (this is going a little far, but it's a beautiful piece)

"I was born to love only you; My soul has formed you to its measure; I want you as a garment for my soul. Your very image is written on my soul; Such indescribably intimacy I hide even from you. All that I have, I owe to you; For you I was born, for you I live, For you I must die, and for you I give my last breath."

It was in Mexican, so it was even prettier...

My body is so sore. My knee hurts...I'm physically falling apart...still
Emotionally, I don't know what's going on. I really, really don't

I'm so tired. I'll talk to you kids later...
♥♥ love and love and happy afternoons...Gracie Lou
i don't know what i feel when i look at you anymore

jealousemostud @ 2005-10-25T21:51:00

2005-10-26T02:00:00Z

Highlights of the night:

Poot and I went to the "When the Levee Breaks" benefit show tonight:
Belladonna, Texarkana, Still I Fall, and then Shake

Belladonna was fine for their first show. We kind of got over them quickly.
"You can be good if you're loud enough. We're gonna have fun with Still i Fall cuz they're louder!" (Peter)

Texarkana:
"An earthquake and everyone's going crazy." E. Shaffer
"A really bad car crash but I just can't look away." E. Kubler
"Yeah...and they're carrying people away on stretchers." E. Shaffer
"I'm getting nauseaus." E. Shaffer

Shake:
"Why aren't they all wearing Indian clothes like Clay? He's from a reservation." E. Shaffer
"They're like fireworks. INDIANS STILL HAD FIREWORKS!" E. Shaffer

The show was pretty nice. All bands did well, Still I Fall being the best, of course, with the commentary screams of Alex and Emily...Juls did fab as expected and it was a nice turn-out.

We went to Wendy's after and met Alex there. At first, Peter and I were there and we ordered and this other guy, the only other customer in there, went up to the counter with his burger and goes "can i have an edible piece of lettuce, please?" so when Peter and I were done making fun of him, we went up to the counter, and I jokingly said to the girl, who was obviously pissed about the guy being a jerk, "make sure it's an edible piece of lettuce". that made her giggle.

the three of us all sat at different tables (until these random PT girls came in) just to make it awkward.

Good times, good times..

♥ whole lotta lovin, kids...

jealousemostud @ 2005-10-24T20:23:00

2005-10-25T00:24:07Z

SpuddyBuddy55: you know i am. ow ow.
jealous emo stud: i know
jealous emo stud: i'm so irresistable
SpuddyBuddy55: can you do me a favor?
jealous emo stud: maybe...
jealous emo stud: hit me doll face
SpuddyBuddy55: wow. in this context, it sounds like i mean a sexual favor.

jealous emo stud: i keep chewing on my collar
SpuddyBuddy55: i'm sorry
SpuddyBuddy55: maybe you should chew gum instead
jealous emo stud: hahahaha
jealous emo stud: i suppose
jealous emo stud: and GET CAVITIES!
jealous emo stud: Josie, you are a horrible influence on my life
SpuddyBuddy55: i know.
SpuddyBuddy55: emily, why don't you go smoke some pot instead?
SpuddyBuddy55: hell, let's go get drunk.

should've seen it coming

2005-10-24T20:04:11Z

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Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?	Your hips
What makes you pretty?	Your style
What makes you loveable?	How cute you are
What makes you fun?	Your positive attitude
What makes you irresistable?	Your laugh
What makes you cute?	Your clothes

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favorite color:
best physical quaility:	eyes
best personality trait:	you can solve any social problem
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now?	yes!
when will you get married?	July 17, 2013
your kiss is:	meaningful!
People date you because:	you're hot

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jealousemostud @ 2005-10-22T15:30:00

2005-10-22T22:31:36Z

heldmyeyesclosed: who are you going to the christmas dance with?
jealous emo stud: Johnny D
heldmyeyesclosed: who's that
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heldmyeyesclosed: you know who the call...the purple ostriches
jealous emo stud: well
heldmyeyesclosed: with our green track jackets
jealous emo stud: what the hell are you tlaking about?
heldmyeyesclosed: ...
heldmyeyesclosed: we perform hate crimes
heldmyeyesclosed: the purple ostriches is me, alex, and emily workman
heldmyeyesclosed: we made it up at lunch
heldmyeyesclosed: and we perform hate crimes
heldmyeyesclosed: while wearing green track jackets
heldmyeyesclosed: i'd rather have heart
heldmyeyesclosed: cause they rock
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jealous emo stud: ooh
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heldmyeyesclosed: christ!
jealous emo stud: churcht
jealous emo stud: Christopher Carrabba
heldmyeyesclosed: THATS NOT A WORD
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heldmyeyesclosed is away at 6:28:20 PM.
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jealousemostud @ 2005-10-19T20:57:00

2005-10-20T00:57:19Z

True love stories never have endings.

i'll sing along the whole day through

2005-10-19T23:48:57Z

Copeland Lyrics:
"You Have My Attention"

Quiet now, your voice seems miles away
Yet somehow, I hear your song resound
A little bit softer each day
And from my tired heart, a little bit farther away

I’ll sing along
The whole day through
Just do your best to hear me
It’s all you can do

You have my attention
Like you’ve had all the while
Since that first day when you made my heart smile
With loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
You have my attention
Like a shout through an empty sanctuary
Speak but a whisper

I’ll hear a sermon
I’ll sing along, the whole day through
Just do your best to hear me
It’s all you can do
I’ll sing along, the whole night through
While you sleep safely
I’ll be thinking about you

You have my attention