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well...
it's not going as well as planned
[i guess i could put it that way]
other than that, LaFawnda is dying.
She's hit the end.
What a shame.
So much for a hoods up day
that didn't go as well as planned, either...
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[17 Apr 2006|04:52pm] |
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it's one of those days, or at least i thought.
i tried it out, but,
the.feeling's.gone.
it's such a shame.
i hope you stay...
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| the start of something new |
[19 Mar 2006|12:59pm] |
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I've changed my mind over the past few months, especially during the beginning of musical, I'd say.
My life has become clearer to me. My friends, included. Changes are inevitable and some are for the better. I've made new friends, as one would expect over the course of 3 months or so. I've started working again after not working for 3 weeks. Not gonna lie, I kind of missed it. Adrienne and I went out to Steak and Shake last night at like 11. Good times. She was telling me this story of a creepy guy who worked there when she went with some of her friends one night. He like..."touched" them and would get into pictures when they'd take pictures with their phones. It just so happened that that very kid waited on US last night. He was so creepy. She ordered a milkshake, but asked it to come with no cherry or whipped cream, and he replied "Do you still want the chopped onions on top?"...apparently he meant the chopped nuts that come on top. It was hilarious.
Let's see...since my last update, and I know it was fairly recent, I bought a prom dress, even though this one is my "back-up" because the one I really want can't be found...yet. Musical has been going well. I'm slightly under the weather, however, it's not necessarily noticeable. I don't have much of a singing voice so that threw everything (Maxwell Show) off for me. I have not yet receieved my District Choir or Honor's Jazz Band Festival CDs yet, which is a bummer, too. (My brother is asleep under this computer desk right now. Too cute.)
What else... Cory and I have been hanging out a lot, which is nice. I went over to his house to visit with Jim after the Beach Bash, while he was home for Spring Break. I didn't get to see Kory, though, which sucked, but I'm hoping to do some college visits sometime soon. Aunt Sarah is pregnant with a boy AND a girl, for those who new she was expecting twins. At least she'll have ONE more girl for Brianna.
Two weekends ago, Mom went to Hidden Valley with everyone, so Katie and I were home alone. We had a jazz band show that Saturday, and we had two this past week (Blind School and East Hempfield Elem.). Supposedly, those were our last "public" shows, but have the Senior Awards Assembly and the Spring Concert left. (He's still asleep.) I've gotten into some awesome new bands, which is ALWAYS super exciting.
I don't know what else there is to update you all on...I want to be a model? Yeah. I'm obsessed with America's Next Top Model and 8th and Ocean (go Britt!!). That's about par for this entry. I'm sure y'all are enjoying reading about my life...or not. But, I work tonight...actually in like an hour and a half, so I'm gonna get going.
xoxoxo
Tall and skinny does not a model make.
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[26 Feb 2006|09:56pm] |
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well...it's been a while since I've updated.
I got to hang out with Marcus last night, and the kids from his band, because they were in Latrobe for a show. It was really nice to see him after so long.
Musical = life, as it usually does, but it's going well.
Jazz band shows are becoming more frequent, but I love performing, so, no biggie there.
I'm applying at Starbucks...woot.
That's it.
My hair's less red, but anyone who reads this, knows that anyway.
I'm out, kids
♥ me
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(001) do the hustle this is a black tie affair
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[11 Dec 2005|10:43pm] |
Stole this from Dominique: Take the first sentence (or second or third) from the first entry of each month. (Jan-March are from the DJ)
January:
(January 1)
this has been a great break.
a lot of things have been going on.
a lot of things have changed.
February:
(February 3)
i have come to the conclusion that i'm very insecure, self-concious, i don't show much emotion (i bottle 'em up...), and i worry too much.
March:
(March 3)
i over-reacted. i'm so paranoid, because i've found such a good thing in you that i'm afraid to let you go. sorry...::covers mouth quickly:: anyway...i'm a drama queen. but i hope i made some what of a point? maybe, maybe not. we'll see how tomorrow goes...
April:
(April 6)
This one is for Josie :
"Your House"
When you're on, I swear you're on.
You rip my heart right out.
May:
(May 2)
hey kids. ok, prom... (pics will be later, though)
June:
(June 13)
hey kids! this has been interesting...my computer isn't working, so i'm at my nonni's. anyway. nothing much has happened. well, little things, but if you were there, you know what's up.
July:
(July 6)
hello hello! i have a new mother-effin computer!! woot. so i'll be on a lot more often
August:
(August 2)
Warped Tour
Got to Nicky's around 9:45.
DeMatteo showed up.
Then Kelly, shortly after 10:30.
September:
(September 1)
hey kids.
sorry for the non-updating-ness..
anyway.
October:
(October 1)
don’t make fun of the gimp god
"with no strings attached?!"
"i'm so obnoxious" "STOP SAYING 'OBNOXIOUS'!"
(that’s Alex kissing my knee…)
“your lunch date has been changed to 4”
November:
(November 13)
it's times like these that make me sick.
December:
(December 11)
i've realized that so much has changed since last year. maybe too much.
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[27 Nov 2005|10:23pm] |
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i don't want to fall apart.
i just want a chance.
not my heart this time?
...but that makes me seem selfish.
nothing's ever certain and that makes me sick.
how do i know what he feels?
...but is he like that with all of us?
Nick's done with.
completely.
nothing will ever happen with him again.
and i'm for sure (and for serious) about that one.
although you might think i'm being crazy, i'm making that definite.
sometimes i amaze myself.
i'm such a bitch.
...but only on the outside.
and i hate it!
if i'm mean to you, which i really hope i'm not, or if i come off as obnoxious. slap me. i'm serious. don't be afraid to tell me straight if i'm being stupid. hit me. or yell at me. pick my poison.
i don't want to be in love.
...at least not yet
but i want someone.
sometimes.
I just want someone who is genuinely kind to me. not using me for their own image. or being selfish.
just someone who will treat me nicely. put up with my stupidity. Not care if I look perfect all the time...even though, that's about 99.999% of the time. someone who will take silly pictures with me. someone who will hold my face in his hands when he kisses me. someone that's doesn't take it fast. I'm old fashioned. I want a boy who will open the door for me. He can pay for me sometimes. Not make a big deal about me going out with the girls and have some time so he can go out with his friends. Someone who's not overly flirty with everyone. Someone who will call me at night to say "Good Night". I just want someone to be there for me. For stupid stuff. Someone who will be a really good friend and when we break up, he'll still be there for me and not be afraid to tell me things. Anything. Because I blurt. So be willing to listen. Someone who will comfort me and be a shoulder for me to cry on (because we all know how often i cry).
I WANT A BOY WHO WILL THROW ROCKS AT MY WINDOW & STAND OUTSIDE IN MY BACK YARD WITH A RADIO IN HIS HANDS PLAYING A BEAUTIFUL LOVE SONG & SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET FOR US TO LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER AND AFTER! ♥
ok...maybe it's just John getting to me. But sometimes I have those feelings. I'm the one who's all "oh em gee. you don't need anyone" (cuz you don't.) but sometimes you just want someone. today is one of those days...
We Beseech Thee...♥ Gracie
"things is hard and things are a' changin'"
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(002) do the hustle this is a black tie affair
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[14 Nov 2005|08:01pm] |
ok. i admit it. i am the world's biggest brat. kill me.
i am pissed.
i am just so sick and tired of me.
sick and tired and i would love to just end it all now.
start somewhere else.
fuck.me.
don't call me. it's broken. it will be broken. don't call. because you can't.
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[29 Oct 2005|10:15pm] |
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the end of the week was fabulous
Thursday was THE biggest blow off day. I was basically down at HB's the whole time "practicing Honor's music". Friday we went to S.Fayette...i love Sam...so fun (pics are to come)
the director was such a nice guy, but no one was really prepared
the girl that sat next to me moved her mouth too much, and had a Frosty vibrato. I wasn't by Rach :(
but anyway. i went to Rocky Horror (midnight show-pics to come) with the gang...Peter, Alex, Larissa, and Allie G.P. that was a blast. didn't get home til 2 AM or so woke up at 7:30. Got on the bus for Honor's at 8. and we went to South Fayette.
They had static in the bathrooms.
it was a fun time. there isn't much else...i guess you had to be there for other little things, like Sam and the tampon, massage trains, S.M wearing pants., that kind of thing...I can't wait for Districts. hopefully i'll get in.
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I'm in Pittsburgh right now...this weekend (especially last night) have gotten me to thinking about things, and a couple of the songs from tonight's performance/choir festival get me, too...
This is from" The Way You Look Tonight (this hit me yesterday, and it REALLY hit me, because it's so true about this one particular incident...well...memory)
"Some day when I'm awfully low. When the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking about you and the way you look tonight. Oh, but you're lovely. This is nothing for me but to love you. Lovely, never, never change. Keep that breathless charm..."
Amor De Mi Alma (You Are the Love of My Soul) (this is going a little far, but it's a beautiful piece)
"I was born to love only you; My soul has formed you to its measure; I want you as a garment for my soul. Your very image is written on my soul; Such indescribably intimacy I hide even from you. All that I have, I owe to you; For you I was born, for you I live, For you I must die, and for you I give my last breath."
It was in Mexican, so it was even prettier...
My body is so sore. My knee hurts...I'm physically falling apart...still
Emotionally, I don't know what's going on. I really, really don't
I'm so tired. I'll talk to you kids later...
♥♥ love and love and happy afternoons...Gracie Lou
i don't know what i feel when i look at you anymore
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[25 Oct 2005|09:51pm] |
Highlights of the night:
Poot and I went to the "When the Levee Breaks" benefit show tonight:
Belladonna, Texarkana, Still I Fall, and then Shake
Belladonna was fine for their first show. We kind of got over them quickly.
"You can be good if you're loud enough. We're gonna have fun with Still i Fall cuz they're louder!" (Peter)
Texarkana:
"An earthquake and everyone's going crazy." E. Shaffer
"A really bad car crash but I just can't look away." E. Kubler
"Yeah...and they're carrying people away on stretchers." E. Shaffer
"I'm getting nauseaus." E. Shaffer
Shake:
"Why aren't they all wearing Indian clothes like Clay? He's from a reservation." E. Shaffer
"They're like fireworks. INDIANS STILL HAD FIREWORKS!" E. Shaffer
The show was pretty nice. All bands did well, Still I Fall being the best, of course, with the commentary screams of Alex and Emily...Juls did fab as expected and it was a nice turn-out.
We went to Wendy's after and met Alex there. At first, Peter and I were there and we ordered and this other guy, the only other customer in there, went up to the counter with his burger and goes "can i have an edible piece of lettuce, please?" so when Peter and I were done making fun of him, we went up to the counter, and I jokingly said to the girl, who was obviously pissed about the guy being a jerk, "make sure it's an edible piece of lettuce". that made her giggle.
the three of us all sat at different tables (until these random PT girls came in) just to make it awkward.
Good times, good times..
♥ whole lotta lovin, kids...
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